I'm confused

So recently I have been reacquainted with friends from the past. It has been a great experience reliving old times and getting caught up on the new happenings in life. In most cases it feels just like the old days, and no time had really passed between us. Then there are some others where things seem awkward. Not necessarily because of things that happened in the past but more like we have grown apart or never really knew each other. I feel as though I should not just brush these people off as they are interested in getting to know me? I might have done a selfish thing, but I needed to know if they fit in my life. I let some time pass to ponder the meaning of our relationship. I realized that I was wondering the how, what, and whens. I would plop down at the computer box hoping for an E-mail. People even started asking me how so-and-so was. It was at this point I realized that maybe they do have a place in my life. It took me a little while to find the right wording to explain my absence and lack of communication. I really felt bad for letting the situation get to the point it had. So I reached out. I explained where I was mentally and said that I would like to pursue a relationship, lets start over fresh and give this thing a try. I thought all was good and hopefully this would get things back on track. I received a response I was not expecting. I was told that per my wishes I would not be contacted again. ?????? I wasn't sure what this meant. I had not said that, in fact I said the exact opposite. I responded again to that effect and got another reply saying that they misunderstood me. Now I feel really bad and hope things are not worse off then before I sent my initial apology. I really want to add another friend to my circle, and hope that I didn't just ruin those chances.